One of the hardest things to get used to after breaking up is to sleep alone and to process the breakup at night. Left to your own devices you re-experience and perhaps even re-write the facts of the past.
You start questioning everything that happened in the past over and over again. Radiolab had a great episode about the subject:
Remembering is an unstable and profoundly unreliable process—it’s easy come, easy go as we learn how true memories can be obliterated, and false ones added.
As a result, I oscillate between insomnia and exhaustion, resulting in some pretty erratic sleeping patterns.
This graphic documents my sleeping and waking hours, starting from the day of separation. It starts out fairly irregular, but there’s light at the end of the tunnel: week twelve is looking pretty normal to me.
Note: to get this data I went through my emails starting three months ago, when we separated. I’ve known that we human beings now amass an amazing amount of data on a daily basis — be it through email communications, electronic calendars or other gadget-based activities. But it’s another thing to actually re-read those conversations.